drowning

Well Michael has been home almost 8 months now and I feel like I am drowning! I still don't work and can't figure out a way to work and make any money if I have to pay for daycare. I love my husband but I don't think he can handle the kids at night by his self every night for me to work at night again and I really don't want to because I would never see him or mikey. I don't know what to do, the rent lady is getting tired of working with us and I can't blame her. I don't know what to do, I cried for close to an hour because I feel so helpless, like I don't do anything. Michael had an interview yesterday for three different positions at yahama, hopefully he'll get one and at least get a pay increase....this blog really doesn't make a lot of sense or really have a conclusion but I just needed to get this out....thanks for listening!